10 Ridiculous What-ifs I Have Actually Pondered In My #WritersLife


Every writer has unfounded fears and unrealistic imaginings. WHY?? BECAUSE WE ARE WRITERS, OF COURSE. Our whole world revolves around the overactive imagination stashed safely in our smol skulls. Sometimes this imagination is a blessing (like when you’re plotting a FREAKING BRILLIANT book series + planning your heist to conquer the world) and other times this imagination is a curse (like when you are plagued with terrifying self-doubt + plot bunnies.)

I MYSELF HAVE A VERY OVERACTIVE IMAGINATION. And it is a blessing/curse in equal measure. The Writer’s Life™ is a difficult thing. It’s a tough business. We have nothing to work with but WORDS. And gosh are words slippery beats to reign in and teach manners to.* Thus, we (or at least I since I should SPEAK FOR MYSELF) worry over lots of “what ifs” that never actually happen.** LOTS is the subject of that sentence. Here are just a few worries that keep this writer bean up at night.

*In fact, it is clinically proven that words have exactly 000000 manners.
**But maybe it’s just me?? IDK THIS IS FROM THE GIRL WHO WILL NEARLY DIE OF A HEART ATTACK IF SHE SEES A CATERPILLER. < true story



This is actually the “what if” I MOST OBSESS OVER. In fact, I’m probably just a tiny bit INSANE because of how much I ponder this. I MEAN IT’S NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE, RIGHT??* I’m incredibly overprotective of my story ideas. Which means 75% of my aesthetic boards on Pinterest are hidden.** I AM THAT PERSON. I’m the paranoid writer who thinks someone is lurking in the shadows of the internet to snap up a random creative idea.


I MEAN THERE’S NO ONE WHO REALLY DOES THIS, RIGHT?? And even when I don’t share my ideas, I’m afraid some talented writer elsewhere in the universe has discovered this brilliant plot bunny as well. BUT I DON’T THINK IT WORKS LIKE THAT.

*RIGHT?????
**SORRY THEY’RE REALLY FREAKING PRETTY TOO JUST TAKE MY WORD FOR IT.

SPOILER ALERT: NO BOOK IS COMPLETELY ORIGINAL AND UNIQUE. Why?? Well, I could get into Psychology™ or I could just tell you that story ideas have been recycling since the dawn of time. It’s the series of events that makes a story unlike anything else – not the components. Essentially, a book is more than the sum of its parts. If you broke any story down to its ingredients, everyone has used some of those ingredients before. Just like with food, a chef’s original dish is not unique because of what is in it, but because of what all those ingredients become. And no, I couldn’t have made a non-food analogy. THAT’S JUST WHO I AM, YO.  

This one is just dumb. You don’t suck. There’s the answer.


I don’t know about other writers, but when I plot a book it’s as if I AM WATCHING A FREAKING MOVIE IN MY HEAD. This, too, is a blessing and a curse. Because OMG WHAT IF I CAN’T WRITE IT. I can see it so clearly in my mind’s eye, I’m afraid I won’t be able to put it into words. I’m afraid I won’t be able to do it justice. I BASICALLY NEED TO BECOME A MOVIE PRODUCER/SCREENWRITER AND GET ME A ONE WAY TICKET TO HOLLYWOOD STAT.

This one is also severely dumb. THE ONLY WAY IT WOULDN’T BECOME A BOOK IS IF YOU DON’T WRITE IT. AND YOU WILL NOT BE A LOSER BECAUSE YOU ARE MOTIVATED. Right??? *nervous laughter* You’re not a loser. Or a failure. BELIEVE IT, BRO. TELL YOURSELF SOME MOTIVATIONAL STUFF.


I’m so afraid of this one, I practically hiDE UNDER MY BED FROM IT. See, plot bunnies plague me. True story: I get a new book idea AT LEAST once or twice a month. WHY???? DOESN’T MY MUSE KNOW THAT I HAVE EXACTLY NO TIME TO WRITE AS IT IS?? I love new book ideas but when I don’t tackle them right away and instead store my ideas on the back burner, I’M AFRAID I WON’T BE EXCITED FOR THEM LATER. Which is actually ridiculous because I love my plot bunnies more than THE VERY FLESH ON MY BONES. Why would I get tired of them?? (BUT WHAT IF I DO.)

REMEMBER!! A BOOK IS MORE THAN THE SUM OF ITS PARTS. That’s the cool thing about art – it is unique because of the touch of the artist. EVERYTHING we make is unlike anything of its kind. But that doesn’t stop me from worrying that someone else has already made the thing I want to make and IT’S TOO LATE BEFORE I EVEN STARTED. Help???

Maybe this is just a historical fiction problem but WHAT IF you write something into your book that isn’t accurate a few years from now?? EVERYONE WILL SNUB YOU AND THINK YOU’RE IMMATURE. Right? WHAT IF TOMORROW WE DISCOVER THAT DINOSUARS WERE ACTUALLY VERY LARGE PENGUINS AND NOW YOUR WHOLE BOOK IS RUINED???? Obviously my middle name is Unrealistic.

This one is almost as dumb as thinking you suck at writing.

THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT. Like I said before, we all create stories out of the same ingredients. Of course there are LOTS of ingredients out there. But it’s also a small world. So don’t be surprised if someone else uses strawberries in their dish. THEY MADE A THREE LAYER STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE AND YOU MADE STRAWBERRY MANGO SALSA. Completely different!! (Also I just made myself really hungry.) The point is: you can’t be WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN. Why?? Because you’ll never just DO YOUR ART AND BE HAPPY. I clearly still need to learn this lesson.

Can you add to this list?? What are some of the unrealistic fears you worry about in your Writer’s Life? Have any of them actually come true?? Not sure if I want you to answer that one tbh. How do I stop obsessing over this???? *NERVOUS LAUGHTER*

rock on,
abbiee

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  1. UM THANK YOU FOR THIS!!!!!!!1 <33

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    1. UM THANK YOU FOR READING!!!! <3333 ;)

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  2. These are so relatable omg! I believe every writer has also pondered these what ifs.

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    1. YAY I'M SO GLAD YOU CAN RELATE <333 thanks for reading, dear!!

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  3. I haven't related so much to a single post in a looong time. And yes, I plot as though watching a movie in my head too! (Although maybe that's because I plot to trailer music??) I always worry about my ideas not being 'original' enough , but I recently saw this quote that I remember whenever I feel myself falling into that particular rabbit hole: "Yes, everything has been said before, but it hasn't been said by you".

    Great post, Abbiee!

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    1. OMG I'M SO GLAD YOU RESONATE :'''') the struggle is so real!! ugh. I PLOT TO TRAILER MUSIC SO MUCH SFKLHLAJHFKJDL *high fives* YOU KINDRED SPIRIT <3 oooh I love that quote!! I NEED THAT ON MY WALL OR SOMETHING. Thank you so much for reading, Sunset!

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  4. SAME. I relate to basically everything on this list. Like, I am terrified that all my book ideas are actually really bad knockoffs of other books??? But I am unique, so I bring a unique perspective. BUT WHAT IF I DON'T!!! *deep breath* It's cool, I'm fine.

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    1. YAAAAS OMG IT'S SO TRUE. Basically your comment = my thought process. :''') the struggle is real. I'm so glad you can relate to this!! *nervous laughter and group hugs waah* <3

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  5. These plague my little writer self so much. xD Oh, the worries we face as wordsmiths! I always FREAK OUT that one of my geniuspreciousunique ideas will all of a sudden be published in the real world one day. O.o That's just a scary thought.

    But actually, I have come across a writer's blog who basically plagiarized everything: her novels, her post ideas, her titles... from several other blogs that I read. I RECOGNIZED EVERYTHING AND WAS ABLE TO MATCH THEM. Like, there was no mistake. She completely stole everything and reworded most of it: the story descriptions, the posts. BUT IT WAS STILL OBVIOUS. I was facepalming the entire time while I browsed her CHRISTIAN blog and vowed never ever ever to do that because um, pirate. Not nice.

    But anyway. I digress.

    WE WRITERS HAVE UNREALISTIC FEARS THAT WE MUST CONQUER. Of course, some of them are realistic... but very unlikely. I try not to think about them. xD

    Fabulous post as usual, Waffle Queen. <3

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    1. SDHAKJDLJ I KNOW RIGHT writing is seriously a nerve-wracking art :') HELLLP. omg really?? UGH THAT'S SO AWFUL. It's so hard to stop blog pirates. :( THEY HAVE LITERALLY 0% POLITENESS. ugh. Maybe I have reason to be so paranoid?? hahahem *nervous laughter* WELL SAID EMILY. ;) thank you so much for reading!

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  6. This was SOOOOO relatable!! Thanks for the post, Abbiee!!

    littlebitofsunshineweb.wordpress.com

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    1. EEEP YAY I'M SO HAPPY YOU LIKED IT <333

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  7. O.O The first point is one of my greatest enemies too.

    And yes, I have a ton of secret Pinterest boards as well xD

    audrey caylin

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    1. RIGHT?!?! OMG THE FEAR IS SO REAL. *hides under bed* Secret Pinterest boards are beautiful, aren't they?? :')

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  8. Ahhh yes I relate so much! Particularly to #4 at the moment?! Like I'm plotting out a series I'm pretty freaking excited about buuuuut it's such a MOVIE in my head. And the thought of trying ot make these epic action scenes into words is making my smol soul wilt like a lettuce. Save me from myself.😂

    I also get worried that someone will steal my writing. And I HAVE had someone steal my pinterest boards. Like legit my little blurbs and all my pins. I mean whyyyyy are people so DUMB. But no one will ever write my books like I will. NO ONE. And no one knows all the details even if they know the premise. And I don't think anyone could be enthusiastic enough for a book they didn't create themselves, you know? 😂 At least that's what I tell myself.

    *smacks silly writers fears in the face*

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    1. IT'S SUCH A STRANGE FEELING BUT OMG WHAT A STRUGGLE. :') I'm so glad you can relate. Words are just SO HARRRDD SOMETIMES??? ugh. whyy. SO TRUE -- no one will write your books like you will. And I agree, even when I hear about someone else's great book idea I'm like 0000% interested in writing it myself??? lol hopefully everyone is like that!! xD Thank you for reading, dude! *cake*

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  9. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT OF COURSE I SUCK AT WRITING. And ugh, I hate those little stealers. They should all be ashamed of themselves. *smacks them* But AGH YES my fear is like unintentionally copying things from other books. I get inspired a lot by books, but I feel like when I'm "taking" something from it (like a cool magical world, or a sassy character -- even though those things exist BEYOND that book???), I'm copying it. Idk. XD

    I actually get tired of the idea AFTER I write it. XD Not a very good writer I know. I think the excitement of a NEW STORY IDEA just wears off. But I FORCE MYSELF TO KEEP WRITING because if I don't, who will???

    May @ Forever and Everly

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    1. NOOOO YOU DON'T YOU ARE FABULOUS NEVER STOP WRITING YOU'LL JUST GET BETTER *showers you in confetti and waffles* YES I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN. Sometimes I'll read a book or watch a movie and I'm like "AHFKJAL I WANT TO USE THAT SCENE/EVENT/LINE/CHARACTER HOW CAN I USE ITTTTT???" and then i'm like bro calm down don't be a pirate :'''') the struggle is real.

      SEE THAT'S WHAT I AM SO AFRAID OF TOO OMG. Plot bunnies turn me on but then a few months later what if I'm tired of them??? WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF. *cries*

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  10. Preach sistah! All of the above have crossed my mind at some point or another. One of mine is "What if my story makes no sense to anyone else?" Because I feel like a lot of my writing doesn't make 100 percent sense when it's written out like it does in my head. *pterodactyl screeches and gnashes teeth* Ahh, the paranoia of writers... XP

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    1. YES OMG THAT'S ANOTHER ONE!! My sister fears that a lot too with her series. :') Sometimes we get so involved in our magical/scientific/crazy worlds we forget that everyone else has no idea what's going on and HOW THE HECK TO EXPLAIN IT ALL??? but also writing = not always concise and perfect?? WHYYYY *hits head on desk* the paranoia is real omg :')

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  11. #3 is probably what I struggle with most. Oh, and #4 cause the story ideas are so perfect inside of my head. It has all the right emotions and stuff(That's honestly probably the reason I keep writing), and then I write it...Bother.

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    1. UGH YES. So much same, Meaghan. :'''') I'm so happy you could relate to this too!! *cries on yo shoulder* <3

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  12. OMG 1 and 4 I do all the time!!

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  13. Great post, I definitely relate! (Especially about the plot bunnies... geez. I can't count how many I've had during camp this month. I've kinda forgotten camp is even a thing tbh. SHHH.)

    Hailey
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    1. I KNOW RIGHT I CAN'T GET AWAY FROM THEM. Like have you ever seen that rabbit island video where there are like 1553251135 bunnies running around?? THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE THE PLOT BUNNY APOCALYPSE omg help :''''') eeep thank you for reading Hailey!!

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  14. WOW THIS POST IS ALL SO #RELATABLE YO.

    I can say that I've felt almost all of these? SOME OF THEM ESPECIALLY. Wow. And dude...all those food analogies are definitely making me hungry xD BUT FOOD.

    Awesome post, Abbie <3

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    1. YAY I'M SO HAPPY THIS RESONATES WITH YOU. :') I KNOW RIGHT I'M SO HUNGRY TOO help i can't stop talking about food?? *let's cry on each others shoulders ok*

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  15. I have all these fears in varying degrees at different times. XD

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    1. ASDFGHJKL I'M SO HAPPY YOU CAN RELATE. :''')

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  16. #3 & #9 JUST MAKE ME SMILE SO MUCH ILY ABBIEEEEE

    #6 always happens to me though??? like i always get these ideas (plot bunnies as you call them UGH so cute) but then afterwards i can't write them because they were just cute ideas or a beautiful phrase that i can't MAKE work sob.

    <3 missed this

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    1. AHHAHAA THANK YOU LIS :') *hugs* RIGHT?? THE PLOT BUNNY STRUGGLE IS REAL. And like you said, sometimes these idea just flop into a cute phrase or scene and...ugh. NO STORY??? waah. SO GOOD TO SEE YOU AROUND ELIZABETH <33333 THANK YOU FOR READING!!

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  17. AHHHH. OKAY THESE WHAT IFS ARE ALL TO REAL. Here is me thinking maybe someone commented the same the same thing as I am so I will quickly check. Writing and all the what if's are such a struggle. I might one day put all my writing into that site teachers use for copy write. I adore this post! Have a great day!!!

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    1. I'M SO GLAD YOU CAN RELATE TO THIS VANESSA. :''') True, writers have too many struggles omg. WAAH IT'S A HARD BUSINESS YO. Thanks so much for reading!!

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  18. Ps - hi, it's me again, and I tagged you for something on my blog if you want to maybe check that out?

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  19. THE ONE ABOUT "WOULD THIS MAKE A BETTER MOVIE THAN BOOK" THOUGH!!! THAT IS BASICALLY MY HUGE FEAR. I AM NOT ALOOOOONNNNEE!!! ;)

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  20. abbiee, sweet girl.
    this is my first time visiting your blog and it's just beautiful!
    what a lovely corner of the internet you have here...<3

    even though some of these sounded pretty legit, i couldn't help but smile all throughout your post.
    you have such a liveliness to your writing. a joy to read!

    it was a pleasure to 'meet' you...i hope to be back soon.....

    much love,
    ashley

    www.likenootherjourney.blogpost.com

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  21. The amount to which I can relate to these is actually insane.

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  22. I seriously worry about #7 and #10 WAY TOO MUCH. It's literally insane. As soon as I have an idea I think "I'm sure that's already a book". It's a curse. A CURSE, I TELL YOU. Anyway, great post, Abbiee!!

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