Real Life Saturday (Episode 12)


So I was going back through my Real Life Saturday archives and I was like, “waiT.” Because it’s been A VERY LONG TIME since I did one of these, hasn’t it?? Anyway, I’m back. Hi. LET’S TALK ABOUT REAL LIFE. Because, come on. THIS IS WHERE IT’S AT. Yo. (Ahem.)


  • The entire drum part for one of my songs (COMING SOON SHH.) This sounds all very peaceful and creative, but GUYS – it’s mentally taxing. I don’t actually have a drum set (no room, you see *weeps quietly in the corner*) but for this particular song, I’m using a kit on my stage piano. Pairing hits to lyrics and actually making them sound good, then notating each hit with a color-coded key in a notebook is…well let’s just say it’s tiring. (Hahaha…ha.)
  • Vegan brownies that fell quite apart but were yummy anyhow.
  • Myself mad…at myself. You know. The usual.
  • A non-mess on my desk (wait I think it’s called cleaning…?) I also cleaned up my room and smiled at the #aesthetic (ahem) and I also put a piece of Blue Mountain Beach (*sniff*) in a mason jar. (HONESTLY WHAT COULD BE PLEASENTER??)

Wednesday was a really bad day for me, guys. Do ever have those? (PLZ SAY YEP) Those days where you completely lose it over some trivial little thing that does not matter and then you’re frustrated (frustrated FRUSTRATED) at yourself for getting upset? Which makes you MOAR UPSET until it’s just a downward spiral of emotions?? idk it seems to happen to me a lot lately and I’m really trying to stop.

Anyway, Wednesday was like that, and in the midst of languishing on the couch with a headache, I felt a warm, tingly voice inside of me being like, “You never let me down.” And dude, that like REALLY HELPED. Because this is what I always seem to be telling myself – “You let me down.” But finally, when I was quiet enough to hear Him, God told me the truth. And it’s true for you and everyone else. You never let Him down.


  • Photoshoot feat. my gorgeous sistah.
  • Waffles for lunch. Because, come on??
  • READING. I just finished How To Be Here (the book I quoted the other day) – it was a quick read but so good. I’ve got my eye on another book about living in the present (something I need immense help with, apparently) and I’m still eating my way through Winter. (Although I’m KIND OF disappointed?? idk I’m not finished yet, but so far I keep saying to myself, “Where is this going?? I did not expect things to happen like this…” < but not necessarily in a good/bad way? IDEK. I guess it just doesn’t feel like a finale to me.)
  • ALL THE GLORIOUS FEEDBACK Y’ALL GAVE ME ON MY LAST POST. Seriously, you guys don’t know how much your beautiful support and friendship means to me. I CANNOT EVEN FATHOM THE AMOUNT OF WAFFLES YOU GUYS DESERVE. Like, how. <3 omg.

Living in this moment. Right now. YEP THAT IS LITERALLY THE ONLY THING I HAVE PLANNED. My mom and I were chatting about it this morning – how when we live for “the thing we’re going to do next,” we’re not actually living. Because once you reach “that thing” you’re thinking about the next thing. And then the next thing. And it’s basically an endless cycle of misery in which you’re blacking out your life and not actually living. Ever. LIKE I STILL CANNOT QUITE GRASP IT BUT I THINK THERE MUST BE SOMETHING PROFOUND THERE.

What did you make this week? How do you feel about drums? (Glorious beasts, they are. <3 AGREED??) Do you ever have days where you feel like you’ve let yourself down? What do you do to make yourself feel better? And while we’re on the topic of misery, WHAT MADE YOU HAPPY THIS WEEK??

love,
abbiee


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  1. My bad days usually come when I either don't know what to do with myself (so I just lie around, getting more and more bored/lazy and depressed) or when I stress too much about something I want/need to get done, OR when I don't accomplish the things I want to accomplish during that day. Reading a good book, watching a good movie, or listening to good music helps. My go-to song when I'm depressed is "Life on Mars" by David Bowie, for some reason. Don't ask me why, because I don't know, but it almost always helps.

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    1. OMG YES ME TOO. Not knowing what to do with oneself = the root of all blaaah. XD Books, movies, and music are all fabulous ways to feel better. Music is usually my go-to for lifting my spirits. IDEK IT'S JUST AWESOME. <3

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  2. OOOH MY WORD drums are terrifying. I've never gotten the guts to actually do anything with them so #respect to you, girl!!
    And I TOTALLY GET the days where it's like....I don't know on those days I just feel like I don't actually have the capability to be a nice person, and then God just goes "I like you anyway. And I love you too, but I LIKE you, too, even on your bad days."
    Now excuse me while I go eat waffles for lunch (no actually we do this at my house A LOT. Waffles are the best.) and happily jig around my room because *you linked my posts* YAAAAAYYYY. :) that makes me so happy.
    THIS POST. BASICALLY I JUST LOVE THIS POST. I love your real life Saturday posts. :)

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    1. EEEEE BUT DRUMS ARE SO COOL. (A bit like unicorns, in that respect?? hmm xD) I really really really want a drum set one day omg. #goals ♥ "...then God just goes "I like you anyway. And I love you too, but I LIKE you, too, even on your bad days."" << YESSS EXACTLY. It's so nice to hear that you feel the same way about this, Sami girl. :)

      aaaaaHH YES WAFFLES FOR LUNCH DESERVES TO BE A RITUAL. And omg dude your posts were too good not to link. LIKE WUUTTT EVEN. <3 ILY SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR READING!! :D

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  3. YAY I LOVE REAL LIFE SATURDAYS

    Ugh, as always, madly jealous of your photography skills.

    I'm always mad at myself, glad that I'm not the only one who does that haha. Well, not glad that you get mad at yourself, because let's be real, it's not fun. But hey, I know I'm not completely crazy now!

    I'm sorry about your bad day. :/ I have those ALL THE TIME. They're just the worst, aren't they? But they're so great when God comes in and decides to drop a little reminder-truth-bomb. <3

    YASSS CAIT AND SAMI AND YOUR SISTER. I WANT TO BE THEM.

    I actually had chocolate chip waffles for breakfast this morning and it was kind of the best thing ever.

    I think that's a very good goal for the week. I just might adopt it;)

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    1. YAY I AM SO GLAD. *hugs you* eeep omg thank youuu!! <3 I'm so happy you like the pics. ^.^ UGH AND I'M SO GLAD YOU GET MAD AT YOURSELF TOO AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN. (we get each other kay XD) "But they're so great when God comes in and decides to drop a little reminder-truth-bomb." <<< so true!! It's beautiful. :)

      OMG CHOCOLATE CHIP WAFFLES I NEED SOME NOW. <3 ack. Thank you for reading, Grace Anne!

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  4. I finished Winter at 1:00 am last night and LOVED IT. ASDFGHJKL. But I will say, it was considerably longer than I thought it would be. But it gets five stars from me!! Honestly I just want to go back and read it again and again because I LOVED IT SO MUCH.

    And I totally get what you mean about letting yourself down! Especially with school, I start to feel miserably inadequate when I get anything less than an A, and I have to remind myself that grades don't define me. Thank you for the reminder!

    (Also, I'm painting my room a color called "Belgian waffle" and thought of you.)

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    1. so ik this comment was not directed at me at all buT HAHAHAHA BELGIAN WAFFLE GOALS GOALS GOALS

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    2. EEEEEP I'M SO HAPPY YOU LOVED WINTER. It is super long, isn't it!? XD haha I guess she had a lot of things/characters/subplots to wrap up, but still. LOOOOONG.

      That's too true, tho -- grades can't define us. I'm glad this encouraged you, Mary Shelley! I definitely still struggle with the same stuff, but in my head I know the truth? It just has a hard time sinking deeper than my head sometimes. <3

      OMG YOU'RE PAINTING YOUR ROOM A COLOR CALLED BELGIAN WAFFLE AND YOU THOUGHT OF ME. MY LEGACY IS FULFILLED. *SQUEAKS TO INFINITY* *AND FLAILS* YAAFDJSLAKDJL

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    3. RT OLIVIA

      *WIPES TEARS*

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  5. ^before I say anything: um can I paint my walls the color of waffles too...?????

    Also, I want your sister's shirt. "CAMP SLEEP". IS THAT NOT THE GREATEST THING EVER?!?!?! And remember how you said "hipster classy" is totally a thing and your sister has that same style?? Well I agree, and I feel like just judging by these two pictures of her I would love everything in her closet. #mhmstyletwinsforthewin

    Music production sounds exhausting. Yep.

    I don't think there is a single post of yours that does not include the word, "waffles". Not a single one. It makes me laugh :D

    CAN WE WORK ON LIVING IN THE MOMENT TOGETHER BECAUSE SOMETIMES IT AGGRAVATES ME SO BAD I COULD BEAT MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL. ahem.

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    1. RIGHT??? I NEED SOME OF THE WAFFLE PAINT IN MY LIFE. AAAACK. <3 oooh yes!! I remember the hipster classy thing and how I said that was her. YOU WOULD LOVE ALL HER CLOTHES YES. Also that shirt is adorable, isn't it?? XD so much her. haha.

      MUSIC PRODUCTION IS EXHAUSTING. THANK YOU FOR SAYING IT. x) AHAHA OMG YES!! BUT WAFFLES TAKE UP A LOT OF MY BRAIN SPACE, SEE. ;) which means there is less room for remembering unimportant things like birthdays and math. (Ahem.)

      YES PLEASE WE SHOULD ABSOLUTELY WORK ON LIVING IN THE MOMENT TOGETHER BECAUSE TBH I TOO FEEL LIKE BEATING MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL. *hugs you and cries*


      (also i love the fact that we're such soul twins i can just end a reply with *hugs you and cries* bc that's literally wut i mean)

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    2. I believe you end pretty much every comment to me with *hugs you and cries* and I honestly love that because um SAMEEEEEEEE! We are totally soul twins.

      haha who needs to remember math when you have waffles hehe?????? I mean the latter will totally help us more in life hehe??????? right??? justify me???????????????

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  6. YOUR PICTURES ARE STILL LIKE STOCK PHOTOS. YESSS.
    anyways, i may or may not have been superly excited when i saw that you had posted a real life saturday posts...i really love these posts, they're so REAL. no kidding. my bad days are usually the ones where i do NOTHING. days that i'm on the go, on the road all day, or just have my schedule jam-packed are my happy place. idk why, but i just love being busy and feeling PRODUCTIVE. and the days that i hit a slump and do NOTHING; they are the WORST EVER. ughhhh. so yes, i do feel ya on that. UGH. typically those are my weekends or long weekends actually, like, when i do nothing, which is FRUSTRATING. anyways, yeah. annoying.

    BUT for me personally i guess getting inspired by God's Word and (*ahem* my quotes on pinterest) really get me through and make me want to go GET EM. so yeah. also food <33 like waffles ;)

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    1. AWWWW OMG THANK YOU. <3 *heart busts with happiness from your amazing comments* GAAAH ALSO I am so happy that you like these posts!! They're fun to write, and I love getting caught up on life with y'all. :D

      Yes, I totally agree. Usually days when I do nothing I feel so useless and meh. But then some days I just need some kind of a break from my work (which is constantly creating stuff) so then it feels good to just still my mind?? But BEING ACTIVE IS MY HAPPY PLACE TOO. <3 I can't imagine how terrible it would feel to have nothing to do. *shudders* XD

      QUOTES ON PINTEREST YES. (btw you have the best eye for those quotes.) And God's word is always ointment of the sweetest kind. <3 AND WAFFLES. << THAT RIGHT THERE IS THE PERFECT CURE I THINK. Will try it next time I'm feeling down and let you know how it works. ;)

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  7. SO I painted my mom some wildflowers and framed them for mother's day :)) and I honestly can't remember back far enough to remember anything else HAHA. whoops. DRUMS CREATE GLORIOUS CHAOS AND ADRENALINE AND THEY'RE BEAUTIFUL. Can't even wait to hear that song, gahhh. Yesyesyesysysresyf I have days like that fo sho. Honestly, thinking about it, and I don't really know what I do to make myself feel better ?! THIs IS CONCERNING ME. It kinda helps to get outside, go on a walk, watch a sunset, and just pray/talk/feel to God, and be reminded of the truths in his word :') Also, just to rant about it for a little bit to someone, hah, sometimes that helps. OK WHAT MADE ME HAPPY UM. CIVIL WARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Doing well on my final presentation. when i GgOT INVITED TO GO TO PROM 2 DAYS BEFORE AND STILL FOUND A CUTE DRESS FOR RLY CHEAP AND HAD A GOOD FRIEND WHO ACTUALLY KNOWS HOW TO DO HUR AND MAKEUP FOR ME. when I saw someone I wasn't expecting to see at prom ! WHEN I SLEPT IN TILL 10:30 ON SATURDAY WHAT WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME THAT EVEN HAPPENED TO ME. waking up with legs sore from dancing #partyhard jk probably just not fit. xD talking to frands on the phone last night for an hour. seeing buttercups everywhere in the fields :') and just gonna stop there. EXCEPT WAIT. ONE MORE WEEK OF SKEWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! blessed.
    I MISSED REAL LIFE SATURDAYS :'))))))))))))))) SO HAPPY

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    1. WAIT WHAT WHEN DID THIS COMMENT GET SO LONG HAHAHAHHAHA LIFE SRY

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    2. OMG YOU ARE DAUGHTER GOALS. that is so sweet. :') "DRUMS CREATE GLORIOUS CHAOS AND ADRENALINE AND THEY'RE BEAUTIFUL." < UM YES I LITERALLY COULD NOT HAVE SAID IT BETTER. AAAACK <3 They are my love. I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO HEAR THAT SONG, EITHER. EEEEP. ooh yes walks outside + sunsets definitely help me to clear my mind, focus on this moment, and not worry about everything. BUT IT'S HARD TO ENTER THAT RELAXED STATE OF MIND, LIKE WHY?? idk. ugh.

      OMG GIRL IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAD AN EPIC WEEK OF WONDERFUL HAPPY THINGSSSS!!! *dances around* I LOVELOVELOVE HEARING/READING(?) YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR AWESOME LIFE AND THE THINGS THAT HAVE MADE YOU HAPPY LATELY :') seriously it makes me even moar happy yo <3 I LOVE LONG COMMENTS SO NEVER APOLOGIZE YOU DEAR LITTLE WATERMELON. *squeak!* *hugs*

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  8. Oh man, I hate those days. But living in the moment sounds awesome (honestly, it's something we all need to do a lot more of), and I hope it is going well for you!

    What made me happy this week? My family went hiking on Sunday, and it was so much fun. I took a gazillion photos and haven't even begun to sort through them yet.

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    1. UGH YES. the struggle with living in the moment is too real... :( BUT IMA TRYIN. So this is good I suppose. x) HIKING! PHOTOS! Sounds awesome, Serena! <3

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  9. AHHHH DRUMS ARE AWESOME. There are just some beats that just afjdskalfd they slay. They do. I'm not sure if you listen to Sia? But her drums = mind blown. AHEM. So good luck for your drumming adventures! Will we get to hear the results of your awesome?! *fingers crossed*

    Also I DEFINITELY have days when everything is just BLAH. :( And just gets worse. heh. Some days (weeks? MONTHS??!?!) need reset buttons honestly. Or just copious amounts of naps and waffles.

    AHHHH YOUR pHOTOS THOUGH. LIKE HOW EVEN ARE YOU SO TALENTED WITH THE CAMERA. I'M JUST GONNA SIT HERE AND STAR NOW. I loooove the 2nd one.

    Also YAY for room cleaning! I cleaned up my desk so it looked all nice and aesthetically pleasing for a workplace photo for my instagram. Then I posted it and my older sister is like "YOU LIAR you don't even work at your desk" ๐Ÿ˜‚ Sisters. Omg. How is one to handle them sometimes. (I was just like "INSTAGRAM DOESN'T ALWAYS HAVE TO BE TRUTHFUL". #noregrets) xD Ahem.

    Also I am jealous of your waffles for lunch. Also you shared my post. AHHHHHHHH. <333 PRECIOUS BEAN YOU.

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    1. DRUMS ARE AWESOME EEEEP. *dances around excitedly* AAAAHH YESSSS SIA!! Seriously "Alive" is one of my current faves omg <3 <3 <3 YESSS you shall totally hear the results of my awesomeness! haha. ;) DUDE IT GIVES ME GREAT COMFORT TO KNOW THAT YOU HAVE BLAH DAYS TOO. bc let's face it you're my blogging hero and you blow my mind with all things you manage to do! LIKE INTERACTING WITH SO MANY PEOPLES AND WRITING A WHOLE FREAKING BOOK ON YOUR WAY TO THE GROCERY STORE LIKE HOW EVEN. omg YES TO RESET BUTTONS. "Or just copious amounts of naps and waffles." < OMG YES OR THAT. xD

      EEEEP I'M SO HAPPY YOU LIKE MY PHOTOS AKLJSADKA THANK YOU SO MUCH!! Hahah that second one was a bit tricky. My camera only has a 10 second timer option so I had to run and jump into position on my bed for it to work. *facepalm* the things I do for my blog... xD AHAHAH DUDE YOUR WORKSPACE PIC WAS SOOOO PRETTY. and omg sisters can be so very honest sometimes...IT'S QUITE INCONVENIENT. XD but that convo is awesome.

      YESYESYES YOUR POST WAS TOO BRILLIANT TO NOT SHARE!! <3 also psssh you're a precious-er bean. ^.^

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kind words are like raindrops on the desert. they make me bloom with happiness, as absolutely cliche and cheesy as that sounds. even if it's just a simple alt+3 i will heart you for it. so, go ahead! MAKE MY DAY. literally.