I Want To Find Narnia

[print dress that i’m swooning over via altar’d state]

I know something is there.
I can feel it
But I can’t quite see it

I am another Lucy Pevensie
In an alternate universe
One who doesn’t pull the sheet off the wardrobe
Because she has too many things to do

But she feels behind the sheet
Edges of wood, ornately carved
The imprint of a lion, the details of a tree

Something’s back there

I can feel it
But I don’t pull the sheet off
I wish I could

I want to
I want to find Narnia.

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i've been struggling with these thoughts lately. but the now is not fixed, it's constantly changing. it's melding like wet clay in my hands. i know i'm a creator of light. but i need some help bc i don't understand all of this. every once in a while, i guess i just need to let my heart bleed out a little over here. plz don't mind kay you the best ;)

love,
abbiee

34 comments

  1. Wasn't it C.S. Lewis himself who said something to the effect that 'we all find in ourselves a longing for something better'? This is beautiful, btw. The dress reminds me of Aravis, I think.

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    1. Hmm that sounds familiar! <3 so true. Thank you, Nina! :) "The dress reminds me of Aravis, I think." < OMG YES.

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    2. the actual best outfit compliment ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

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    3. "The fact that our heart yearns for something earth can't supply is proof that heaven must be our home."

      maybe.. just...maybe..? I dunno either way IT'S A GOOD QUOTE OK

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    4. ♡♡♡♡ to all of these thoughts. Bleed away, I've got a first aid kit handy :)

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  2. I wanted to find Narnia SO BADLY when I was younger! (Still do, if I'm being honest.) My sister remembers actually waiting in our closet for a door to open up. But yes, you need to pull off that sheet. :)

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    1. RIGHT?!?! It's a lovely thing to dream about and look for... :') I still do, too haha. "My sister remembers actually waiting in our closet for a door to open up." << THAT IS SO EPIC I CAN'T EVEN. Lewis would be proud. ;)

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  3. pls don't stop letting your heart bleed here
    UGH ME TOO BABE AND SOMETIMES I FEEL SO CLOSE *crying emojis* but, hey, I mean, we get heaven (WITH THE REAL ASLAN OFLKSJD.. but better) so I guess that's a pretty good ;)

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    1. GAH YES THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR. <3 *hugs you forever* You're so right, we get heaven we get goodness in its fullness I just wanna see it all so bad but maybe it would blind me who knows *moar hugs* *also waffles*

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  4. Ooh, what a pretty poem. <3

    And DUDE, you are SO gorgeous. O.O

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    1. AWW OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH. <3 eeeep you're so nice ^.^

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  5. Altar'd State is literally the besttttttt. I love that place so much. Pretty sure that I would spend all of my money there if I wasn't so cheap haha.

    Also, YOU ARE SO GORGEOUS OH MY LORD. Like, you're literally stunning. I can't. #ultimatemodelstatus AND YOU SAID YOU COULDN'T DO YOUR HAIR LIESSSSSSSSSSSS.

    RT Olivia- please don't stop letting your heart bleed <3 It's so beautiful.

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    1. ISN'T IT THOUGH?!?! OMG. I went to one of their stores for the first time when we were in Charlottesville and I COULD HAVE LIVED THERE OK. :') everything is sososoo beautiful and they played all my favorite music and basically it is the best store in existence ok .<3

      GAAAAAAAHFSDJKASLKDJA OMG STAHP YOU'RE THE LOVELIEST OF EVER<3 THANK YOUUU DEAR. ^.^ OMG but braiding and stuff!! it's SO HARD to do up-dos and things D; but curling is fun and pretty simple hehe. PSSH YOU ARE ALSO #ULTIMATEMODELSTATUS SO YOU KNOW...

      *hugs you tight*

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  6. OOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. wow. like, "One who doesn’t pull the sheet off the wardrobe
    Because she has too many things to do," <<<THAT. you said it.

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    1. and i love the dress. a lot. :)

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    2. GAAAAAAHHHHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH OMG <3 *hugs* *and flails* *a lot*

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  7. I want to find Narnia too!! :(
    And, just by the way, saying, girl, you are BEAUTIFUL! I only dream of having hair or beauty like yours! Haha :)

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    1. Gah the struggle is so real sometimes. <3 ALSO OMG THANK YOU. *squeak!* YOU'RE SO NICE EEEP. *giant hugs*

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  8. Awww Abbiee this is just so beautiful and I think it perfectly captures how so many of us youngins feel. I've been struggling so much lately not knowing what my niche is. Like, what am I even doing?? XD But it doesn't matter. Cause five, ten, fifteen years from now, I'll look back and know I needed these 'lost in the wilderness' moments.

    You are so beautiful and you deserve to find Narnia(just bring me with you cause...you know...Narnia...).

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    1. OKAY YES THANK YOU FOR THAT. <3 "Cause five, ten, fifteen years from now, I'll look back and know I needed these 'lost in the wilderness' moments." < exactly!! These moments and struggles are super important, you're right. Now I'm thinking about the wood between the worlds and how it works the same way and WE NEED TO JUMP IN THE PUDDLES BUT WE DK WHERE THEY LEAD. like wwhaaaa. <3

      OMG YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND THANK YOU I SHALL ABSOLUTELY BRING YOU TO NARNIA WHEN I FIND IT SOMEDAY. ;)

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  9. Oh THIS IS BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Also please find Narnia. Do it. And take photos for us.

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    1. GAHDSKDJKLAK THANK YOU CAIT OMG YOU'RE SO NICE TO ME <3 *hugs* I will absolutely take photos. ;) it would make an excellent blog post, wouldn't it? XD

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  10. WOAH MY GOSH WHAT IS THIS. xx you are mah queen girl.

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    1. AJFLSKJS OMG NO YOU'RE MINE <3

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  11. CONTINUE LETTING YOUR HEART BLEED PLEASE OH PLEASE OH PLEASE.

    This was so beautiful.







    Hey, Abbie......




















    pull off the sheet ok

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    1. GAH THANK YOU AALIYAH ILY SO FREAKIN MUCH <3






      okok ;)

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  12. DUDE YOUR HAIR IS LITERAL GOALS I SWOON.
    Ahhh I relate to this post so much. Idk I just want to run away to Middle-earth forever. Have adventures with the Company and the Fellowship. Explore Valinor. Fight alongside Maedhros and Maglor. I know it would likely be much less glamorous than I imagine once I get there, but that doesn't prevent me from daydreaming. Regardless of the danger, it would be much more exciting than my current life. :)

    Ellie | On the Other Side of Reality

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kind words are like raindrops on the desert. they make me bloom with happiness, as absolutely cliche and cheesy as that sounds. even if it's just a simple alt+3 i will heart you for it. so, go ahead! MAKE MY DAY. literally.