west coast diaries - part nine: arriving at cape disappointment










May 21. We woke up early and drove all the way to Cape Disappointment, which, thus far, has not disappointed. It was a lovely ride and I enjoyed it.

The park here is gorgeous! We’re camping so close to the water that we can hear the crashing of the waves all the time. When we arrived, it was about four o’clock. We "set up camp," and then me and Dad hopped on our bikes and went down to the water to check out what the beach is like here. It is so beautiful! There is a lighthouse on one side, and wide dark sand stretching all the way down. It’s amazing here. There aren’t any rocks on this beach – or, very few, that is. It’s mostly sand with TONS of driftwood.

So we romped on the beach for a little while, then we headed back to eat some food and then we all piled in the car with our electronics to go hunt down a wifi hotspot. It’s quite deserted here, so there is no Starbucks. Waa. For some reason, the most beautiful rhododendrons grow here. 

Ahh, so finally I have a little time to talk about thoughts. My thoughts. The ones that I’ve been thinking. The ones that, as I wrote in my book last night, have been “crashing and fleeting” through my head “like an airport.” So true. That’s how I feel a lot of the time.

Does anyone else besides me ever stop and think, “What am I thinking about?” Because I do this all the time. I wonder what I’m thinking about, and then I realize that I’m thinking about what I’m thinking about and that’s like a mirror in a mirror in a mirror in a mirror. It’s never ending, and kind of crazy.

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love,
abbiee

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  1. My thoughts often feel like an airport too... that's a neat way to put it!! A lot of the time I find myself wondering whether I think in words or pictures - like, if you recorded the inside of my head, would it be a movie or a soundtrack? Sometimes it's a little bit of both. When I'm consciously thinking about something, it's all words, but I always wonder - when I'm not aware that I'm thinking, when my brain is humming along all by itself, do I think in words and formed concepts without even realizing it? Or do I revert to pictures and vague ideas?
    It's like trying to see the wind, or hold water - I feel like everything just slips out of my grasp the more I try to ponder it. It's kinda cool, though. :)

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    1. gah gah gah gah gah. *wails and cries over the beauty of your thoughts* Seriously, I loved reading that. "if you recorded the inside of my head, would it be a movie or a soundtrack?" Ooohh, yes! I've thought about this before, too. It's strange how a lot of thoughts aren't visualized, but yet we can visualize them if we really try. Eeep, I love chatting about psychological stuff like this. ♥ Thank you for reading, Olivia dear!

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  2. asoibofsfba the lighthouse oneeee <3 also my hair looks AWESOME woo

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    1. OH MAN I WUZ AFRAID YOU WAS GONNA BE LIKE, "EW MUH HAIR LOOKS GROSS" SO YAY

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    2. O_O why do you think it does?????? am I wrong???? AM I WRONG? FOR THINKING THAT MY HAIR COULD LOOK GOOD FOR RREEAALL???

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  3. These pictures. <3

    And YES THE WHOLE THING ABOUT THINKING WHAT YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT IS MADDENING. It's kind of like when they give you the IV or whatever it is for getting your wisdom teeth out and tell you, "You will be awake the whole time and will feel stuff, you just won't remember it afterward."

    IS THERE ANYTHING MORE MADDENINGLY HORRIBLE IN ALL THE WORLD, GUYS.

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    1. OH MY GOD YES. ^ THAT IS ONE OF THE SINGLE MOST REASONS WHY I WOULDN'T WANT MY WISDOM TEETH TAKE OUT. AND IT'S JUST FRIGHTENING TO EVEN HEAR THE DENTIST GIVE YOU THE WHOLE SPIEL WHEN YOU'RE SITTING THERE, GRIPPING YOUR CHAIR IN TERROR, THINKING, "I'M NOT DOING IT I'M NOT DOING IT I'M NOT DOING IT NO MATTER HOW YUMMY YOU MAKE IT SOUND."

      whoa sorry for the all caps. xD
      I'm so happy you liked da pictures. ♥

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  4. dang whoever that girl is in that picture is- her hair is smoking hot. ;)
    ok yeah i was reading the comments but i promise i thought that when i was scrolling through the pictures. i was like wow wish my hair would look like that in a messy bun.
    anyway these pictures are GORGEOUS. also i think about me thinking about my thoughts all the time. then i get stuck in an unending whirlwind of abstract thoughts and madness. i kinda like it though. i just think so much about everything all the time. and then i think about how God actually gave me the ability to think about all these thoughts and things and it's so. freakin. amazing. like his imagination and creativity?????????????? like what????????????? wow??????? like he made up all of this?? he made up me? my mind? my heart in all it's rage and raw beauty? what is life? AND LIKE DREAMS? WHATTT. HE IS SO AMAZING. ok. i'm done. but just wow. (told you i think a lot;)

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    1. Haha, yes! Katie's hair is awesome. And I'll make sure she reads your comment because that will make her happy. x) Thank you so much, Olivia dear! I'm so glad you like the pictures. ♥
      OMG YES. Literally, everything you said here is so perfect and awesome and right on and yes. :D "like his imagination and creativity?????????????? like what????????????? wow??????? like he made up all of this??" I LOVE THE WAY YOU THINK KEEP ON DOING IT GIRL YOU ROCK MY SOCKS OFF.

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  5. You drove right past my house to get there!:) Enjoy your time there. Cape Disappointment is a beautiful location.

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    1. OMG!! That is so crazy! xD Thank you, Raquel! Cape Disappointment is super beautiful. ♥

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  6. WOW WOW. This is beautiful...definitely NOT disappointing :)

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    1. Hehe, yes! Thank you so much, Lauren! ♥

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  7. I LOVE THESE PHOTOS!
    Thoughts are alike an airport, especially for moi.

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    1. <3 ugh yes. Thank you, Emily dear! :D

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  8. i totally get the mirror in the mirror thing hahaha! it's very frustrating most times but other times i catch myself and laugh at myself being frustrated at my thoughts because it's pointless, and yeah it gets confusing hehe.

    but that place looks gorgeous!! i wish i could visit that place one day. it looks like an absolute dream <3<3

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kind words are like raindrops on the desert. they make me bloom with happiness, as absolutely cliche and cheesy as that sounds. even if it's just a simple alt+3 i will heart you for it. so, go ahead! MAKE MY DAY. literally.