when will you fly, my darling?


when will you fly, 
my darling?

when the ends of the earth are singing your song?
when you inject butterflies into your stomach?
when you fall under the halothane of someone else's guidance?

but when will you 
f l y ?

when you impress someone who will never mean more to you 
than your closest friend or mother or father?
when you have more than an empty room to give your voice to?
when you have thousands of eyes staring back?
will you fly then?

you will?
y o u   w i l l

but oh, my darling, you could fly now
you have a thumping heart and strong wings 
and a brightness in your eyes that will only fade under attention
like a museum piece

you could fly now, my darling
if only you 
w a n t e d   t o

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Life has been totally crazy lately, guys. I've been the worst little watermelon when it comes to reading all your awesome blogs, but I promise I'm going to catch up very soon! This poem was sparked from some recent thoughts about waiting for future things in your life -- be they popularity, following, attention, etc. I don't want to be the kind of person who doesn't know who she is until everyone else tells her who she is. Thoughts?

love,
abbiee

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  1. I love that you described yourself as a little watermelon, haha :) That made me smile. My thoughts are that people can't tell you who they are. Finding identity in anyone other than Christ will make you stumble. So we have to absorb and embrace what He says about is in spite of what others might say we are.

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    1. Yes, oh my goodness. How true and beautifully put. ♥ My thoughts exactly, Erin Marie. I strongly believe that what you focus on will keep you strong. Thank you for the lovely comment!! :)

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  2. Erin Marie said it well! I think often we wait for approval in the eyes of others.... when in reality, like Erin said, our identity is in Christ. If we seek it elsewhere, we're going to be disappointed.

    Other thoughts... waiting is rough. Like, waiting for whatever we are waiting for. Right now, I feel like I'm in a period of serious waiting...for everything. XD But waiting is not a bad thing. Just found Habakkuk 2:1-3, and man. That reassurance that the things which God has promised to be faithful in, will come. It will not delay, but will come in the exact moment that God wants it to come--the perfect moment. No matter what it is, God can handle it. And that's reassuring.

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    1. Literally thank you so much for such beautiful words. ♥ Wow, I'm going to have to check out that scripture. I feel the same way, girl. Although I know where I'm headed, there's a lot of waiting involved. Kind of like a loooooong drive. But I'll enjoy the scenery. And like you said, trust God. Everything will happen in his perfect time. :)

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  3. Wow. Wow wow ow. I know exactly how this is...the feeling of being a museum piece. And after all those years, things flake and grow dull and I grow dull and so tired. I needed this right now. ♥

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    1. ♥♥♥
      Thank you so much, dear!! I'm glad this spoke to you. You're a treasure, just remember that. :)

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  4. Oh my goodness, this is gorgeous!!

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    1. GAH, thank you so much, Grace Anne!! ♥

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  5. THIS ALSKDFJSDLKFJLDSKFJEWKFLKSJFCLWEJLFRJEWLRFJWELIJ
    GAH
    this is so powerful
    so powerful i have no words it just makes me feel so much
    thank you so much this how do you know when i need a post like this.
    well i guess i always will.
    BUT THANK YOU.♥

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    1. AHFODKN oh my gosssh!!! ♥ Thank you so much, Olivia! You're literally so freaking sweet and I'm so glad this touched you. EEp. ^.^

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  6. This is something I think about a lot, too! I'm always feeling that battle of stretching my wings and then pulling back, wanting to reach out and discover who I am when I only have an empty room, when no thousands of eyes watch me constantly...but I'm afraid of who I might find, too. You know? Afraid that who I am might not match up to who I want to be, afraid that the journey in front of me is farther than I originally thought. So I keep stretching, and pulling back, and then stretching out a little farther.
    All that to say...I resonate with this! You always inspire deep thoughts in me. :p
    Also, I've been having a hard time keeping up with blogs, too! WE SAD LITTLE WATERMELONS. glad I'm not the only one. :)

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    1. YES, SO MUCH THIS. ♥ Seriously, I know exactly what you mean. It's impossible to know what the future holds, so it is a scary thing to reach out. It certainly involves a lot of trust -- something I'm learning more about every day. "You always inspire deep thoughts in me." SUFSKNDAJKN THANK YOU. This made my day. ^.^ And thank you for the sweet words, Olivia!!

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  7. WOW! Did you paint that yourself?
    Love the words you wrote! :)
    Beautiful!!!

    http://onethousandwordsatatime.blogspot.com/

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    1. No, unfortunately. Hehe. ^.^ I wish I could paint like that! It is gorgeous art though -- I found it on Pinterest. I'm glad you liked the poem, Isabel! Thank you. ♥

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  8. I cannot express enough just how much I needed to read this poem today, Abbie. I am quite literally crying. This touched the exact things that have been rolling around in my heart recently. Thank you so much, dear. <3

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    1. omg. ♥♥♥ I am so honored that this poem spoke to you. *huggles you tight* Thank you, Hannah. :)

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  9. Wow! Great writing, Abbie. I know what you mean. Sometimes I feel like I shape myself to what people think I am instead of searching inside myself for that answer. Best wishes!
    ~Elizabeth

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    1. Yes, exactly! Thank you so much, Elizabeth! I'm glad you liked this poem .♥

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  10. reading blogs is the easy part, but commenting? i totally suck at that. muahah. but yes, i totally get you on that. it's hard to keep up with blogs and life. don't worry. :-)

    Amen to Hannah and Erin!

    also I adored this piece. eeek. ♥

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    1. Yes, so true. x) #thestruggleisreal And thank youuuu, dear!! ♥ You're the bomb.

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  11. I definitely relate to you about the catching up with posts thing. x I've been sooo busy with school lately, and I have a TON of posts to read. ;) Wish me luck on catching up this weekend!
    ~ Sanjana
    peridotcove.blogspot.com

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    1. Oh YES. I'm with ya, girl. WE CAN DO IT. ♥ good luck. ^.^

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  12. What a beautiful poem, Abbie. I love it so much, and I completely understand. I can't believe how heartfelt it is, ut it gives a different meaning to me. To me, it's about flying away from problems, and feeling free. But I guess that's just me <3

    xx Bash | Hey Bash | bloglovin'

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    1. Thank you so much, Bash! That means so much to me, oh my goodness. ♥ "To me, it's about flying away from problems, and feeling free." < yessss! I love what you got out of this poem. :)

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  13. Abbie<3
    Isn't it just magical how we can all read your words and understand it differently... It was beautiful, truly. To me it was just another reassurance that I can leave all the depression, anxiety and fear where it belongs, in God's hands. It's taken me awhile to realize again that giving all that STUFF up lets me fly so very high and so VERY free. Oh man. Life is beautiful from the clouds. ;)
    About the keeping up with blogs part, join the crowd my watermelon friend!! Some of us are so very odd little funny-looking ones but we all love our lives as a watermelon so it's all good! ;P I have smartly put your blog on my favorites page so that when I remember to check it I can. cuz.. you know.. I kinda love it;) hehe. <3

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    1. OUCH MY HEART. ♥ You're literally so sweet, Kate. Oh my gosh. "I can leave all the depression, anxiety and fear where it belongs, in God's hands." I couldn't have said it better myself. And you're right, life is so beautiful from the clouds. I'm so glad you liked this poem, dear!! And I'm totally going to catch up on all your beautiful posts ASAP! :D

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kind words are like raindrops on the desert. they make me bloom with happiness, as absolutely cliche and cheesy as that sounds. even if it's just a simple alt+3 i will heart you for it. so, go ahead! MAKE MY DAY. literally.